Word-filled Wednesdays: Be Still

"Be still and know that I am God."Psalm 46:10
These are words I will never forget. A little over a year ago, I became pregnant. Ahhhh, the joy! I was almost 40 and had been told years back that my childbearing days were over because of hormonal imbalance. And yet, I was pregnant! I prayed for my little one. My blessed surprise.

Then just one day before my 10 week appointment, the unthinkable happened. I began bleeding, heavily. And cramping. We went into the hospital and they did an ultrasound. And behold, there was my little baby, heart beating. And they said get lots of rest... your baby is okay for now, but your bleeding is very heavy and so your baby is in danger.

And so I went home that night and prayed and I pled with God and I rested but I continued to bleed heavily. The next morning, I awoke to terrible pain and bleeding. And I knew, without a doubt that I was losing my precious baby. I cried out to God and He answered me. I heard His voice so clearly. He spoke and said, "Be still and know that I am God." At that moment the pain went away, but just as surely I knew the baby was now with Him. Peace washed over me, and though the sadness was not gone, I knew that God was not leaving me or my baby.

"Be still and know that I am God." Words, that even now, over a year later, bring a mist of tears to my eyes. God gave me a great gift... I was pregnant and I saw my little one on that ultrasound. Though I went through deep sorrow over my very real loss... I know great joy also, for one day I will see my child, in Heaven.

Our God is so good. Our world is fallen and there is pain and suffering and evil here on earth, beyond what we can understand, but God never leaves us, nor forsakes us. He has promised us so much more than this world can offer us. His love is deep and without measure. When in times of trouble we can seek Him and find Him. "Be still and know that I am God."

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